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Discussion Topic: Where is everyone?
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 Beth |
07-12-2002 @ 5:39 PM |
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Joined: Jul. 2002
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Hi, I'm new to this site, and have really gained from reading all of the message postings.
However, i'm a little concerned, b/c most of the messages are pretty old. Did everyone stop using this support service, or did everyone get better?
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| Anne-Marie, Site Director |
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07-12-2002 @ 6:01 PM |
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Hi, Beth. So nice to meet you! Some people have moved on, but some are still around. Many read and are reluctant to post. I hope you will stay and see the new things we are about to launch. Anne-Marie
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Anne-Marie, Site Administrator
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| Kim |
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07-13-2002 @ 9:15 PM |
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Joined: Jul. 2002
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Beth,
This is the slowest group I have ever dealt with,, in regards to response time.. and relativity...
But listen up... we can change that.... AND I am happy to meet you... You and I are blessed with a distinct difference from the rest of society...we are hypersensitive...
lol... Beth.. I am as lost in this disease as the next person.. please walk next to me?
I need some help.. and not from a site director, but from someone who can relate..
Thanks for listening.
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| Beth |
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07-14-2002 @ 11:48 AM |
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Joined: Jul. 2002
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Kim,
I've replied to all of your postings today, and now i've finally met you, so to speak.
I must confess, i check this site at least 2-3 times a day. I've never had others to talk about my disorder with, and its so helpful.
Please take care of yourself, and know that i am always here (or at least regularily here:)
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| Kim |
07-14-2002 @ 11:11 PM |
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I wish I had logged in about 5 hours ago!! Beth -thank you SO SO Much...
I used to just check the site every few days, cuz it was so slow.. now that you are here, I will make sure I log on.... there are a lot of folks in here too, that probably feel the same way.. why bother posting.. nobody home...
I think we should change that.. right NOW... lets make a concerted effort to talk to everyone so they feel heard, and also share our struggles every day.
I will be back on tomorrow night aroun 8.... NY time.. lol
Night Beth and thanks.. lets get this place rockin eh?
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| Beth |
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07-15-2002 @ 12:39 AM |
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Hi Kim,
I have no idea what 8pm NY time is here in Ontario, so it might be a little hit and go.
I'm going to reply to all of your postings here, b/c its so much more simple to keep things all in one place.
First of all,i think you are so brave for going natural. When i first started having problems with anxiety, i was on only herbal treatments. Didn't really work for me then, but i think that when i'm a little better, i can probably wean myself of medication by using herbal stuff. The problem with herbal remedies are that you build up a tolerance for them, so the more you use them, the less they work.
You asked me if i have trouble sleeping. I guess you could say that, b/c i don't really sleep. I sleep for about 3-5 hours at a time, really restless sleep with intense and bothersome dreams. This is going to sound really quirky, but right now i have two beds. (I don't work in the summers, so i don't have to have an alarm set). I have one in my room (obviously), and one in my basement. When i can't sleep in one, i switch. Most nights i'm split b/wn the two beds. I can't remember the last time i slept through the night. Its the part I hate most, b/c as if its not tiring enough to be constantly on edge with anxiety. Its very exhausting when your mind is unable to relax. I usually stay up until i'm dead tired, b/c i hate the few moments b/4 I fall asleep, when i have thoughts i can't control. This is a very bad time for me, its when i have to fight the hardest not to slip into a panic. I actually have meds to help me sleep, clonazepam. Its not a knockout drug, its just to help relax. However, i only take one in an emergency, i find that i often feel worse after having one. Same thing with my xanax, i avoid it at all costs. Right now, i'm only taking my antidepressant regularly (celexa).
Anyways, what i wanted to tell you about, b/4 that rant, was about a really great herbal sleep remedy. I used it initially, it is wonderful. I slept peacefully and deeply. Unfortunately, it got to the point where i was using it every day, so it stopped working. Its called Valerian. If you have problems sleeping, i'd try it. I tried many different ones, and this is the only one that seemed to work. (I've had a panic disorder for about 5 years now, which is when i tried herbal remedies. This, of course, is when nobody knew what was wrong with me, and just thought i needed to relax. So, if you've found relief from any of your herbal stuff, please let me know.)
I'm really at the point where i'll try anything.
Just to let you know a bit about my personal history, i'll tell you about the different treatments that have failed me. Hopefully you can suggest ones that have worked for you. Only meds have worked for me.
Anyways, I've been through past life therapy, full body modification, hypnotization, EMDR treatment (which essentially reorganizes your REM sleep), counselling and psychotherapy. Throughout all of it, i've always felt so alone, b/c nothing seems to work or make sense as a solution.
Jeez, I know this is getting long, but i actually have a few questions for you, please don't answer if you find them too personal.
One of my major problems with anxiety is a feeling of hopelessness for the future. I'm in my twenties, but still live at home. I've notified my parents that they can expect me here for quite a while still. I really don't know if i'll ever be able to move out on my own. I don't know if i'll every be able to be married (i can't even hold down a relationship b/c my anxiety interferes). I also don't think that i'd be a good parent b/c this disorder controls me. How can you explain to a child that Mommy has to stay in her room and can't talk to anyone for several days at a time??? Its thoughts like these that makes me feel crazy, and hopeless. I guess what i was wondering, is if you have passed any of these milestones in your life, and whether anxiety has affected your experiences. ANYONE please answer me. I'm at a point where i believe that I'M going to be ok, but will i ever be able to include anyone else in my life?
This disorder is so unfair. I don't deserve it, no one does.
Anyways, Kim, thanks so much for being here. I'm starting to develop a new sense of normalcy, now that i can compare to other people who have the same problems as me.
I'll talk to you tomorrow.
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| Kajikit |
09-06-2002 @ 8:20 AM |
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I just wanted to say hello, I'm here... I've only just found this site and I have to say I wish it had been around two years ago when I started dealing with this stuff! I had to do it all by myself... I've come a long way since then and I'm hoping that this site will help to take me further on the road to recovery.
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