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Discussion Topic: Good Day... Bad Day?!?
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 tony75 |
09-16-2004 @ 2:49 PM |
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Hey Everyone,
I'm getting really frustrated. Well, I've been way PAST frustrated for a long time now. I've been dealing with this condition for approximately 13 years now (off and on). Here's what's bugging me lately-
I had a REALLY good day on Tuesday. I had been dealing with some anxiety issues lately but they've been getting better. So, anyway, Tuesday was great. Then on Wednesday I had a TERRIBLE panic attack at around lunch time. It was the type of attack I hadn;t had in years. I mean, I've had this condition long enough to know how to stop one in its tracks. I don't know what happened yesterday. I freaked out. I was edgy and felt scared for the rest of the day. It was awful.
My question to you all is this- Do you ever find that enjoyment can actually bring on panic? Sometimes I think I can't actually believ that I've gotten out of my own head to have a good time and NOT think about me. Then, when I realize that i DID have a good time I go back to feeling a little anxious. It's like I'm always waiting for the next symptom to hit. And when I conquer one symptom of course another one flares up. Ugh. It's really frustrating!
I don't know. I guess I'm just reaching out to you guys to see if anyone else goes through this. Like if AFTER you notice yourself having a good time or seeing something beautiful, you feel panicky afterwards? I dunno. It sounds kind of crazy to me but what do I know.
Thanks for all of your input in advance.
Sincerely,
-Tony
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| rachele |
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09-16-2004 @ 5:49 PM |
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Hi Tony. I don't know if its the same thing but when I am actually relaxed or out and about and ok I'll think to myself "Wow, look you are doing ok". As soon as I notice that I'm ok the anxiety starts again, if I don't catch it fast enough I can have a full blown attack from that one thought. This happens to me ALL THE TIME! Very frustrating and weird. For me I just concentrate on talking myself through it, this is exhausting but at this point I can't think of any other option. Rachele
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| Sarah |
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09-16-2004 @ 5:53 PM |
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Oh yes, I often have a panic attack after an enjoyable social experience. For example, my husband and I had our wedding party and their spouses over for a BBQ to celebrate our 6 month wedding anniversary (I know, we're newlyweds. What do you expect?  ) and I had a great time at it. There were 12 people in my house (usually a big trigger) and I just loved every minute of it.
The next day, was a totally different story. Not only did I have NO energy, I had constant panic attacks all day long. It's like the panic didn't want to let me have a good time. That's one of the reasons I call it 'my uninvited house guest who won't leave.'
I usually find that my panic calms down a day or two after an event like that. But, I also have to avoid all triggers during that time period as well. I don't think I'm as far along in my recovery as you are. I still can't stop an attack in its tracks yet, but I'm hopeful.
I hope my rambling was of some help. Hang in there. We're all in this together!
Sarah
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| tony75 |
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09-16-2004 @ 5:57 PM |
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Yeah, that was EXACTLY what I was talking about. It's like you're out of yourself just long enough to have a good time. You get lost in something interesting. Then the thought hits you - "Wow, I'm having a great time and I haven't noticed my anxiety in quite some time". Then, all of a sudden, it comes crashing right back into you.
Ugh, it is FRUSTRATING. It's like you can't escape it. I mean, I know it's just a habit; but it's a tough one to break, ya know?
Thanks a lot for your response. it means a lot to me to not feel so alone.
Sincerely,
-Tony
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| OBrendie |
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09-16-2004 @ 10:17 PM |
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I'm new to this anxiety / panic thing but I have noticed that If I am distracted and having a good day the minute I think hey I did not have any anxiety than that is when it comes. This has to be a subconsious mind thing but this is a scary illness for anybody to encounter and I hope I can learn to control them as you have stated. Its like the more I try to control them, the more of them I have.
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