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 Derium |
07-10-2003 @ 8:07 PM |
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Joined: May. 2003
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ok im really happy now!
I just went doen to dairt mart (its my goal that ive been setting and im trying to go atleast once a day, its about 2 min from my appartment). well normaly I get there run in grab whatever im buying then run out and leave as fast as possible. well I forced myself to sit in the parking lot for one min flat, then I turned up the music a bit (loud music makes me a bit nervouse now...even thought I have a $2,000 system in my car) and drove home...well here is the part im happy about!
right on the corner of the block I live on is a 6-way stop light...on the other side is a busy mall...well I have been afraid of the mall die to trafic and the loooong lights, well I drove up to the 6-way light, turned right (same block as mine, keep in mind the block is as long as the mall is) and drove down the road ive been fearing for a long time! I came over over the hill and saw another stop light, but instead of being afraid I got happy! so happy I started to cry...I made it back to my appartment about 2 min ago...and I feel so good about myself now, I only had 1 problemswallowing once I hit the 6-way lights...I know its a very small step, but im feeling like "me" again almost!
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| Jaime |
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07-10-2003 @ 8:09 PM |
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That’s great I’m so happy to hear that and I still have problems with loud music for some reason, it’s like it’s too much for me but I don’t think that’s anything to worry about, lol.
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| Derium |
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07-10-2003 @ 11:50 PM |
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lol ok its even better now, I was doing "laps" on a road I havent been down in months, and I just decided to go up to the mall ( a place I feared0,welp I drove up to it and right along side it, I cut across the parkinglot then onto the busy road across from it...and I didnt not worry once!
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| Adele |
07-12-2003 @ 5:52 AM |
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Joined: Jun. 2003
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Great work Derium! I'm really pleased for your success. I love the feeling of finding unexpected strength. Revel in the victory and look forward to plenty more where that came from. 
Adele
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| Derium |
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07-12-2003 @ 5:49 PM |
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well things seem to be getting better. Im able to push myself outside more and to distant myself even more from my appartment. I do have the feelsing of dread when I start to leave, and im getting a bit of anxiety. but im able to pull it off.
I am on no meds whatsoever, so I think im going to be able to kick this agorophobia pretty soon. Thanks for the support you people helped me a lot :o)
one thing that is helping also, is im keeping a list of the times I went to bed and woke up, and where I drove to that day and how long it took me. So I try to top what I did the day before. The main problem im having now, is I just feel I need to "relax" between trips. But It doesnt bother me much, because just a few days ago, I was terrifyed to even leave the appartment at all.
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