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Discussion Topic: Life change, promotion, friends
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11-02-2004 @ 5:38 PM |
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Hiya guys,
I just wanted to share with you a bit about what has happened in my life recently. I think it is a success and a chance to make a new start in my life... so here goes...
A little while a go i got a job, my very first job, and was working part time 8 hours a week at a popular clothes shop here in the UK. i didnt think i could do it, but i did, and i've been working there for a month now, and got my first pay cheque today! it felt amazing, knowing what i had achieved... but that isnt all...
As of next week i'm being promoted to Assistant Manager, full time work and in line for the oportunity to become manager of the store! This i cant believe! A little while a go i thought my life was over, i couldnt cope.. and now here i am Assistant Manager of a fashion store! The panic is still there, but i can control it! i can start living again, step by step one day at a time!!
My life is changing so much, and so fast.. i can barely keep up! I dont even have time to panic half the time lol. I just hope i can do it.. Full time work and responsibilities.. it's going to be a challenge! but hey, life would be boring without them!
On top of all of this, i've started to get my confidence back big time! i'm not scared to go out anymore, i can go and see my friends, i'm getting MORE friends.. My life has changed so so much!
I felt i should share this with you. Not long a go i was as down as i could go, i couldnt get out of bed in the morning.. things were as bad as ever the panic was an internal torture, but it just goes to show that things can change. There is hope for everyone! The panic will ease, and life will be lived. I just want to inspire you all to take a risk, take a challenge, do something you think you cant do.. even if you fail, u tried! Life is full of challenges, and it's up to us whether we take them or not. Life is a challenge in itself, and i urge you to take it!
My thoughts are with all of you who are struggling at the moment. Hang in there, every day brings another opportunity to change your life for the better
Sarah xxxxx
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| Josie, Support Specialist |
11-02-2004 @ 7:44 PM |
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Sarah,
Excellent progress! Keep up the good work and keep us informed of your many more success'. Keep strong and you will you move forward day by day. Look here for support if needed, and we will always help.
Thank you for sharing your wonderful and special story with us.
Josie
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The Depression Center Support Team.
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| TOSam25 |
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11-02-2004 @ 10:11 PM |
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Sarah! I am very proud of you, well done! I can't wait to get there myself! How long have you be going through these tough times before it just started to change! Huh?
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| Rebecca |
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11-02-2004 @ 11:25 PM |
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Sarah,
That's super to hear! I'm so thrilled for you. It's inspiring really. Thank you for sharing, it's nice to hear about your success.
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| Sarah |
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11-03-2004 @ 7:33 PM |
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Wow, thank you so much for your kind words guys, i was worried that when i posted the message something in my life would change to make things go down hill, but as yet.. things are just getting better and better!
Rebecca - I dont mean to sound "full of it" when i say this, but i really do want to inspire others not to give up. I know it's all too easy to disappear and give up trying to get a normal life again.. and it isnt the way. You just have to keep going!
Sam - (i hope i got your name right lol)... I had my first panic attack about 2 years ago and life went down hill from then on. I met someone very special to me about a year ago and he helped me conquere the vicious cycle that anxiety and panic can cause. But even then, the panic attacks got less, but i still didnt have any confidence and i was very much depressed. During the beginning i turned to drink, drugs, and i hurt myself; anything to escape what was happening to me. It was only recently, perhaps 2 months, that i managed to get up one day and go looking for a job. My confidence began to grow from there, and now i'm in a position i didnt think was possible for me to get to.
It's weird how life can change. This time last year i was a completely different person in a life i hated. I'm starting to appreciate it now, and i'm starting to laugh again, and finding myself happy for the first time in ages! Sorry i'll shut up now lol.
Just dont forget to keep going, and dont give in. Take a risk, because u never know what can happen tomorrow.
Sarah xxxx
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| TOSam25 |
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11-03-2004 @ 8:35 PM |
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Sarah,
I am so happy for you. Right now I am crying and I can't really see the light at the end of this screwed up tunnel. I am so sick of this. I was feeling really bad tonight and my head is so dizzy and feels so odd and that something is really wrong with me, I feel like I am dying and the doctor's don't pick up on it, where ever it might be (head or chest). I constantly feel this way even in between attacks. I want this to get better, I am going to take some time off work too, because I can't do that right now either. People tell me the stuff I feel in my head is because it's tense and there isn't any circulation and stuff but I think it's something else. I look at things different and nothing makes me happy anymore. Maybe I should beat the bullet and take medication like my DR wants me to, even though I don't think it's this at all! Thanks for listening and I hope I haven't brought anyone down.
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| gina |
11-03-2004 @ 9:01 PM |
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TOSam25, i to felt just like you i did not want to take the meds either but i got fed up with feeling like you have described and went to my doctor and he put me on zoloft was on that for 1 month and seemed worse then before well went back and told him he put me on paxil cr and told me to take zanax as needed well its been 2 months and im finally feeling like me again i have started shopping and living my life like i used too. the meds really do help but you have to give them time i just had my dose increased and i think im at the right level now its been 2 weeks and i have not even needed a zanax (thats from taking them 3 times a day before) so give the meds a try they can take up to 6 weeks till you start to feel better but with the paxil i noticed a difference in the first 2 weeks
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| Rebecca |
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11-03-2004 @ 10:44 PM |
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Sam,
The stuff you feel in your head, what is it?
Does it ever feel like it's kind of vibrating in some odd way? Or that parts of your body are vibrating or it may be a shaking feeling? And the dizzy, I know that one well. I felt I swear that the room was spinning today and I haven't had that feeling in quite some time. I had to go lay down and I took a nap and relaxed some and it let up a bit.
Tell me more about your head, I may be able to relate to some of that. Yes even often not during the panic attacks the symptoms can remain. I have had weeks at a time of pure dizziness and feeling not myself at all, out of sorts kind of like in some sort of fog.
I know it can be horrible but it can get better. I know it doesn't feel like it ever will right now but it can. Honestly I still have to supress the thoughts that my death is looming or my health is horrible. It feels like no one could possible live like this and that something has just got to be terribly wrong. I go through it too.
I'm here if you need to talk.
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| BlondieUk |
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11-04-2004 @ 2:58 AM |
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Rebecca
Well done !!!!
I am so so happy for you it's brilliant that you're doing so well!
I think that the path your on can only get bigger and better - and you are a real inspiration to all of us !
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| BlondieUk |
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11-04-2004 @ 3:04 AM |
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ToSam
Hang on in there, it sometimes gets worse before it get's better. Thats what happened for me anyway.
I felt exactly the same as you about meds and then when I felt I could take it no longer I went to my doctor who gave me a prescription. I never took the tablets, somewhere I just found that stubborn part of me that dug her heels in.
I know you can do this with or without medications, and I know that one day soon we'll be reading your success story up here. In fact I think you've allready started on that road to recovery. When I first joined this forum I would never read the success stories I was too busy searching for answers in other posts-thinking that maybe what I had could be explained and cured some other way.
Stay Strong xxxxxx
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| TOSam25 |
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11-04-2004 @ 10:53 AM |
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Thanks guys! I just keep thinking this isn't me, it's something pysical that's causing all of this!
I have a CT scan of my chest and such on Monday so we will see what that show's, maybe nothing at all, but I am also going to take a bit of time off work to get some rest and relax a bit, read, go for tests and if I need to, some medication, because I think depression is linked to this as well, I was crying last night and was so upset and sad...
Thanks everyone, your all great people, BIG HUGS
Sam S
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| Sarah |
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11-04-2004 @ 5:06 PM |
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Hey Sam
Well i think the things others have said is some good advice and support. I dont know if this helps at all, but for me it took a long time to accept the fact that there was no physical illness, just anxiety and my mind causing the pain and fears of dying. I also had alot of tests and scans, and they all came back fine. But it does help to have them, and puts your mind to rest. The thing is though, once you are cleared you must try not to move on to something else which could be wrong with you. That was the tough bit for me, as i always felt there was something wrong. Turns out there wasnt. You just have to be hard on yourself sometimes, be strong and convince yourself that you are ok, which you most likely are!
As for meds... I have done all of this without, but everyone is different. If you can manage without meds then thats a great thing! and if you cant and need the meds as a helping hand well thats great too, because it means you're determined to live a normal life, and your determination is the key to your success!
Depression always plays a large part and i think is strongly linked with anixety and panic disorder. Try and combat your fears, stay positive, and step by step your sadness will whither away leaving nothing but your smile.
I wish everyone all the luck in world, and urge you all to hang in there!! It will get better, have faith in yourself, accept that you are not alone, not a freak, and by no means are you the only person who is going thru this. It is tiring and heartbreaking to fight, but when you beat it you see that it was all worth while!
Take good care of yourself, and believe you will laugh again, because i know that sometime soon you will be typing up ur success story! Whether it be small or large. Push yourself to your limits, do things you dont think you can, you might surprise yourself!
Sarah xxxx
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