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Discussion Topic: i'm camping for the first time in years!
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09-04-2004 @ 3:43 PM |
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it's labor day weekend and i'm actually staying at a campground and staying in a tent. of course i have my trusty laptop along with me, so it's not roughing if all the way. but hey, it's a darn good start. a few months ago i would not have been able to drive to the next town over and stay there for a whole weekend!!! and it was my idea. i really love nature. i was only a little bit nervous on the way there but i didn't dwell on it and just kept going. my husband is so happy and so am i. it might be a small step but at least it's a step. i'm happy that i can enjoy this experience without having an attack. now, if it was another state or a city that would be a different story, but for now it's a start.
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09-04-2004 @ 7:01 PM |
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You go girl!!! Good for you Tigergirl! I am so happy to read your post. I have been debating going with my b/f to his family picnic tomorrow, which is about 1.5 hours away and after reading your post I think I will try it. My anxiety hasn't been too bad today so I think I will give it a go. Enjoy the weekend Tigergirl. You should be massively proud of yourself!!! Rachele
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09-04-2004 @ 8:35 PM |
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Congrats Tigergirl! It's not just a start, it's a great start! Hope you have a great weekend! Rachelle, Good for you! Have a great time at the picnic! You both should be proud.
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09-05-2004 @ 12:27 PM |
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jeff, thank you so much for the positive feedback. it's so helpful to have friends who understand the nature of this disorder!!! so far i'm having a great time. last night it poured on us, but thankfully it didn't storm and we stayed dry.
again, thank you for your support. i think it's a major component to healing. most of my family and friends don't fully understand it enough to be a true support. even if they read a hundred articles and books on it, they just can't fully comprehend the gripping symptoms as opposed to all of us who have lived with it.
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09-05-2004 @ 12:37 PM |
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hey rachel, thanks for the high five! did you go camping with your b/f? i hope so, but if not it's okay too. i was so impressed with the 1.5 hours away. i don't think i'm ready to try to go that far away yet. maybe in a couple of weeks but that's a weak spot for me. but if you can do it than you should be so proud of yourself!
do you ever listen to country music? i like some country...the newer stuff. well anyway - Tim M. has an awesome song called "live like you were dyin'". every time i hear this song i get goose bumps everywhere! i think it's a testimony to us all. i want so badly to live that way. i want to go skydiving and montain climbing. hell, i'd be happy today if i could just get on a plane or drive to florida or arizona, or more than an hour away. but my soul wants so badly to do all the things in life that i'm afraid of. my spirit yearns for freedom and my heart cries for it. my mind is determined to get it.
maybe someday we'll both be recovered and we can go skydiving and water-skiing and everything else that we're afraid of right now. sound like a plan?
talk to you later. good luck on your trip and on every aspect of life.
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09-07-2004 @ 12:00 PM |
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Tigergirl, didn't read your post before I posted mine but want to say thanks again. I do listen to country, pretty much the only thing I do listen to. I agree with the sentiment, I want to do all those things too.... well, maybe not skydive... but my heart wants to travel all over the world but just going to see family is a struggle. I hope one day we can do anything our hearts desire. Ramble, ramble, I agree with all you said!!! LOL Rachele
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09-13-2004 @ 10:18 PM |
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hi rachel, i just read your post. glad you also like country. you didn't tell me if you went camping with your b/f. did you? i ended up getting sick the day after we got back. so that sucked! and i'm such a baby when i'm sick and i start scaring myself with "what if" thinking. like what if i get really sick and it gets worse and i have to go to the hospital or take medicine that makes me sick, blah, blah! do you do that, too. well i'll talk to you later.
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09-14-2004 @ 1:21 PM |
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Tigergirl, I guess you missed my post before. I'm copying/pasting it here. But first, sorry to hear that you got sick when you were home. I too freak out when something hurts, thinking what if its really bad and I need surgery, blah, blah. Anything with my stomach is immediately gall bladder, appendicitis, kidney stones, you know, something awful and painful. It can never be something simple when I feel sick, LOL. Its really ridiculous!! Ok, here's the post.
Went to my b/f's family picnic this holiday weekend. I didn't have a full blown attack but have to admit I wasn't too much in the mood to socialize. And I did ask that they do the grilling for lunch instead of dinner so that I could get home faster, but I spent a good 7 hours there. I guess I call this a success because it was an event that would have been easy for me to get out of and I didn't. I'm proud of myself. I hope next time will be easier!!! Rachele
Thanks for your encouragement Tigergirl
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| Sarah |
09-14-2004 @ 3:54 PM |
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Rachele,
Yay for you! 7 hours of socializing is a HUGE achievement! Well done.
Sarah 
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09-14-2004 @ 4:02 PM |
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Thanks Sarah! You won't believe it but since then I have spent two nights at my sisters house out of town and am now in Michigan (I live in NY) babysitting my niece. Which reminds me, I better leave to get her from school, ****, forgot about her! Bad auntie! Rachele
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09-14-2004 @ 9:53 PM |
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Good for you Tigergirl I'm Happy for You!!
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09-16-2004 @ 12:58 PM |
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rach, i'm soooo proud of you! i am so impressed that you were able to drive that far away and stay there for seven hours. i'm sure the next time will be a little less tense. i hope that i can travel that far soon. i'm starting a new career in real estate and i'm really afraid of having to drive out of my comfort zone and with clients with me. what if i have an attack and have to turn around with them with me and make an ass out of myself?! i don't care anymore, i'm gonna try. i'm sick and tired of giving this darn disorder so much power. again, i'm way proud of you!
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09-16-2004 @ 12:59 PM |
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hi al, thanks for the support. haven't talked to you yet, have? please write me back and tell about yourself. best of luck.
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09-16-2004 @ 6:02 PM |
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Tiger, WOW! thats pretty impressive, jumping into real estate that way. You know what? I bet you won't have an attack though when you have clients with you. Whenever I am with clients, interacting with them, and I'm doing work that my brain knows I have no choice about my anxiety completely disappears while I'm with them and I am able to work. Keep us posted but I bet this will happen to you to when you have them in the car. Congratulations, you're one brave lady. Rachele
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09-26-2004 @ 11:56 PM |
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hey rach, i haven't been on for a while so i just got your post. i've been really busy with the real estate thing. trying to learn the ropes. guess what though, i drove about way out to b.f.e. with another agent because she rode with me for "CARAVAN" and i didn't want to just say " oh, i'm sorry i can't drive to see that house because it's too far away". i can just imagine her first impression of me then. i don't think it was all that far, maybe 20 minutes away but it was in the boonies and i didn't know my way around at all. i kind of wanted to turn around and go back to town but a bigger part of me wants so badly to to well at this career! how have you ben feeling lately? i hope well. write back and best wishes!!!
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